Mom; Honorary Resolution of Appreciation today

Today was the last of the retirement events that spread across July: July 18, my party; July 22, office party; July 28, Commission meeting. It was very nice, I got out of my Target cargo pants for nearly the first time all month and wore a nice outfit that rec'd a few compliments. The senior writer, Brenda, did a good and nicely complimentary joh on the resolution.  The Chair of the Commission, an Alameda County Supervisor, stumbled on some words as he read out loud the whole long thing ("conscience" and others) but was self-deprecatingly humorous about it. It turned out that my account is still functioning, so I went back to my old desk and finally sent the farewell email that I'd worked on last night. I continue to be pleased by all that's happened so far with this retirement.

I'm up in the middle of the night worrying about my mother.  I've buried the lead again. Bad habit.  If you are reading this and are inclined to a  few minutes of prayer or contemplation, please think good thoughts about my mother holding onto all her marbles, and regaining her snap when this UTI that we discovered she has clears up. 

I fear she may have had a TIA, a ministroke, or maybe even several of them. She is much less sharp than she used to be.  I woke bolt upright at 2 AM, compelled to go see if she's okay. Good thing I live nearby. I let myself in, and she was sleeping soundly, breathing normally, so I left as quietly as I came in. There are business things that she and I have been talking about for months of changing, and I fear that while I was wrapped up in crazy stressful work and then busy leaving work, that she might have passed into being not quite as competent as she was, to change it.

I'd better get some sleep.