So that was terrible

Dec. 1st, 2025 02:46 pm
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Last night, probably around 4 or 5am, I woke up with awful chills. Chills that caused muscle spasms and left me wanting to be put in a coma, because the pain level swung between 7-9. The Stroppy One went and microwaved every buckwheat pillow, put them on me, layered me in blankets, and then took my temperature. Which was normal, so I have no idea why this happened. I did end up having some nausea, but that's probably because I took my Wegovy shot earlier that evening, and I always have nausea the night of.

Oh, and I never got back to sleep. So I'm punchy, kinda-sorta have vertigo, and am in pain because of the terrible muscle cramps last night, all while working! Yeah, the excitement never ends.

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In shallow capitalist consumption news, we actually went to a mall on Saturday. We didn't want to, but the Stroppy One needed new shoes, so he needed to go to the Dr. Martens store and try things on. While he was doing that, I scooted over to the MAC store and bought the last tube of "Cyber" lipstick that they had. I was waited on by an ADORABLE goth girl, who was all aflutter about my entire look. At one point she made a little bowing action and declared me her queen. That was nice. 

After I bought lipstick, I joined the Stroppy One at the Dr. Martens store aaannnnnnnd ended up adding some things to the purchase: the Dr. Martens Elphie II Wednesday shoes and a version of this purse that has a black ruffle around the edge on the front. While I'm trying to use smaller purses because less size = less weight = my shoulders don't get as cranky, I have the pink one of this, and I've learned not to overpack it. Also, it will be super useful for the big company kick-off week-long meeting in January, because I've learned I need to have a decently sized notebook with me at all times.  

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Good god almighty, I feel terrible.

December posts invitation

Dec. 1st, 2025 06:46 am
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It doesn't seem like posting every day in December is really a thing anymore on Dreamwidth, but I enjoy the challenge of it, so I'm going to try it again this year. I may miss a day here and there.

As is traditional, if you have questions or topics you'd like me to write about, please drop them in comments!

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Nov. 25th, 2025 11:13 am
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- My endoscopy and colonoscopy came back all clear, yay! 

- I expected to sleep after coming home from the procedures. AHAHAHAHAHAHA no my body didn't want to cooperate. And I certainly didn't sleep during the hours of drinking the prep solution. I ended up being awake, with the exception of the procedures, for something like 36 hours. 0/10, do not recommend.

- The Madwoman in the Attic, during her usual meandering around the internet, found this fabric. She told me how many yards I needed for the high collar dress, and I gleefully bought some. Glow in the dark bats!

Stories! The Vertigo Project

Nov. 24th, 2025 09:38 pm
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[personal profile] mrissa posted about her contributions to The Vertigo Project, a generous handful of poems and stories (and journal prompts, and more).

I especially loved the last two stories:

She Wavers But She Does Not Weaken (story), when the waves hit you even on dry land, it's good to have someone who's willing to swim against the current for you

The Torn Map (story), rewriting the pieces of the former world into something new

Links: Anti-AI

Nov. 23rd, 2025 09:36 pm
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The Right to Say "No" by Audrey Watters. A rant about AI, eugenics, and Epstein (no details).
There is a real rot at the core of many of our institutions – and certainly at the core of those powerful players operating within and adjacent to them. "Artificial intelligence" emerges from this rot. It cannot be a bulwark against it.


Why Science’s press team won’t be using AI to write releases anytime soon by Emily Underwood at The Last Word On Nothing.
Every time a translator takes a book and puts it in their own words, they are interpreting the material slightly differently. What we found was that ChatGPT Plus couldn’t do that. It could regurgitate or transcribe, but it couldn’t achieve the nuance to count as its own interpretation of a study.

I think that’s because ChatGPT Plus isn’t in society — it doesn’t interact with the world. It’s predictive, but it’s not distilling or conceptualizing what matters most to a human audience, or the value that we place in narratives that are ingrained in our society. [...]

Now, after this experiment, we’re very against using it. After a year of data, we know it can’t meet our standards. If we ever did plan to use it, we’d have to implement super rigorous fact-checking, because we don’t want to lose reporters’ trust.


The AI Invasion of Knitting and Crochet by Jonathan Bailey in Plagiarism Today.
Creating a pattern requires considering the entire work; each step has to fit with and work with all the others. Blindly selecting the next step without that consideration will, more often than not, fail. This is especially true since AI can’t “test” the pattern after writing it, which is a big part of what humans do. [...]

However, the best and simplest advice is to buy from patternmakers that you trust. If you know someone who is a human making high-quality patterns, turn to them first. Rewarding known human creators rather than chasing the cheapest pattern is the best way to avoid buying AI slop.


Edited to add:
I don't care how well your "AI" works by Fiona Fokus.
No matter how well “AI” works, it has some deeply fundamental problems, that won’t go away with technical progress. I’d even go as far and say they are intentional.


The dark side of AI: Climate chaos, pollution, and injustice by Dwaign Tyndal. "Massive data centers pose serious risks to Black and brown communities."

WorkersDecide.tech, including AI Implementation Bingo. "Frustrated by your employer's generative AI policies? We're here to help you organize."

[personal profile] erinptah's list of a lot more relevant links, content note: teen suicide.

More great links in comments!

Friday Five...

Nov. 21st, 2025 01:24 pm
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What's your favourite TV network? Over the years, I've liked a few...now it seems like nobody has a unique style anymore.

2. If you could create your own channel, what would it be? arts, culture, some left-wing politics, maybe I'd bring the dramedy back...I still like them-- maybe I'm not alone!

3. What TV show did you watch as a child, that you wish they would bring back?Not that I really want *actual MASH* back, though America had lots of feelings about its involvement in KoreaitNam, but I would like to see a show with as varied an emotional template and room for character growth as MASH. Something funny, but less like "Well, they loved that, so let's do it twenty more times," Something that trusts us to figure stuff out a few times(Anti-war messaging and Very Special Episodes optional.)

4. What show have you always hated, and wonder why they ever made such a dumb show? I grew up in the 1980s, which gave me an unmatched opportunity to see the good, really bad, and indifferent from, practically the beginning of the form(thanks to cable-- I'm not a spirit that sits around watching TV or anything...years ago, I might have had more passion about that. But I will say, we might not be here now without "The Apprentice." #DeportMarkBurnett(I've had a lot of streaming access this year, for the first time, and I'm not sure if it makes me feel better or worse how hard it can be to tell "cult favorite" and "Swing and a miss," apart.

5. What TV show's seasons would you buy on DVD? I would have loved it if the reason I got such a great price on West Wing DVDs wasn't because Amazon either let half of them get scratched up or knew they would be. Maybe I should have gotten a *really* great "Take Your Chances" price. Anyway, never finished that rewatch...
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which is just one of my 99 problems, but I re-watched "Morning Glory" last night--it's a cute comedy about a morning chat show, and when I watched it the first time, in say, 2011, I was so jealous of Rachel McAdams' producer character with the job that consumes her life(I have a media degree, so it wasn't *completely* nuts to imagine a sort of AU where that was my Hamiltonian "shot", even though in real life, I never really got that close. You know?)

Working that much doesn't look that good to me now--it's good to know I can get over things; I've clung onto so much.
But I don't know what it would look like if any of my current dreams came true, since I'm not quite at "Wouldn't change a thing," either, obviously.Even if that would make people closer to me happier than it would make me.

Sort of wish I had what one of my more...unreconstructed hippie mentors used to call a "heart's desire" but I guess it could be worse than being confused...I could be tearing myself up wanting a baby, on the corner of Never Likely, and Too Late Now(one of the intersections where Phoenix really does have superior wheelchair access, if you go by my life experience, sadly) and that would hurt more than this. Probably.

A list of random things

Nov. 20th, 2025 11:13 am
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- Today is the day of the all- clear liquid diet in preparation for the joint endoscopy and colonoscopy tomorrow morning. Ew. I start drinking the vile prep liquid in about 6 hours, and I'm REALLY not looking forward to that. I'm very glad we got a bidet installed in the master bathroom.

- MCR announced two additional shows for 2026: October 30 & 31 at the Hollywood Bowl. Whaaaaaah! There's no way I can manage that, because the L.A. show I'm already going to is October 24, and I can't stay in L.A. for an entire week. But WOW do I wish I could see that Halloween show.

- The new Florence + the Machine album continues to have me in its clutches. My favorite song right now is "Sympathy Magic" (especially the chamber version). It's the first F+tM song that has lyrics that call to me for a tattoo: "So I don't have to be worthy / I no longer try to be good / It didn't keep me safe / like you told me that it would". This makes two song lyric tattoos I want, the first being "My childhood spat back up the monster that I am" from a Fall Out Boy song. Let's just handwave the psychological underpinnings of why those lyrics resonate with me, okay? 

- Oooh, did I mention I got tickets to the Florence + the Machine concert in May? It'll be the first time I've seen her live, so I'm very excited. This means I have three concerts to look forward to in 2026: Ghost, Florence + the Machine, and My Chemical Romance. I LOVE live shows; the physical push of the live music soothes something in my body and brain.

- I've decided that I need to knuckle down and take photos of things I want to sell and get started on Poshmark. I HATE mailing things, but I need to do it. Any profits will be spent on that gorgeous custom dress from the Ukrainian designer. 

So how are you folks doing?

More updates

Nov. 19th, 2025 02:45 pm
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Hallo all! I keep meaning to post updates, but then I get distracted. Anyway, thankfully CB flew back home mid-October, and we have been having "fun" with the US medical system since then. He luckily has very few side effects from the stroke, mostly limited to very mild paralysis on one side of his face (people have not noticed unless it's been pointed out) and some weirdness with taste. The annoying thing has been trying to get medical appointments and figure out what to do, as some doctors have been more helpful than others. Also, dealing with insurance sucks.

Nothing like computer maintenance...

Nov. 18th, 2025 12:17 pm
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to pluck up my sagging self worth-- NOT!
(Hope it's no big deal, but sometimes it takes a while to get things in shape again.

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